Is Love Hate Relationship worth it?

by: lvsnn

A brief story about my previous relationship...

I was so in love with this guy I met, he’s really charming and somehow unique.

Fast forward, I was in a relationship with him, it took me 4 month in the “get to know” stage, and then the relationship lasts for about a month. 

After we broke up, I never had the chance to talk to him again, till today.

I was devastated for about a month less or so.

I cried and it was just hell for me.

Sometimes I just can’t breathe, like I was in shock or just numb, like I can’t feel anything.

But then I recover...

Actually, I was the one who broke up with him, well we both do, but I initiated it.

Our break up wasn’t rough at all, we didn’t even fight or cuss at each other. 

We just agreed that breaking up was the right thing to do.

His last word was “take good care of yourself. If you don’t love yourself, who will?”

Maybe you’ll think that I deserved this, I mean by regretting what I did, but I did this for myself.

I just felt that relationship shouldn’t be… the way I describe it, is “dark”.

Before we were in a relationship it was fine, we didn’t fight, it’s like we understood each other and it was just a healthy relationship.

But when we were in a relationship it went weird and awkward real fast. 

We fight and fight everyday, and it’s just tiring.

I was just so confused, cause I had never been in a relationship like this.

Where I love him and hate him at the same time.

So I looked it up, and I just realized that I was in a “Love Hate Relationship” 

Love hate relationship is where you are in love but also hate each other, instead of expressing your feelings, you fight. 

A love hate relationship is the kind of relationship where there’s more anger and frustration in the romance than love and happiness.

Love hate relationship was just not for me.

I love him, like I was so infatuated with him.

But then at the same time, I just loathe him, like sometimes I think “how did I end up with him? like how?”

This kind of relationship just has too much ups and down.

Like I love him and then the next thing I know, is that I hate him.

It was just too complicated.

For me this relationship is an emotional abuse, 

And I just can’t stand it. I just think that it’s not a healthy relationship.

That’s the reason why, I left him. It was too much.

He understands exactly why I want to end the relationship.

It’s because I can't deal with it. 

He wants me to be happy, even if it’s without him.

Hearing him said that, breaks my heart. 

But I think, I made the right decision,

You should’t be in a relationship that’s not healthy, you should feel joy and happiness not frustration.

And if I were to continue the relation, it would just be worse. 

I would still end up breaking with him, and it would just take for ever for me to move on, cause of the more time I spent with him. 

The faster the better. 

In conclusion, speaking based on my experience, love hate relationship is just not worth it, it’s tiring, takes up too much energy, and sometimes it could be stressful to deal with. The point of being in a relationship is suppose to love and be loved, right?

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_I said that it’s not worth it, is because it didn’t worked out for me…

I don’t know about you? but for sure this is not for me.

Maybe it would work out on you? you never know… 

So, it actually depends on the person_